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Irreversible

Sitting and watching the modern, enormous screens in movie theaters gives me out-of-control feeling. The screen is so huge and overwhelming because I don’t know quite what is going to happen. Will the movie scare me, shock me, plod along, create absurd spectacles, jump out of the screen at me? Will I be moved or bored? It’s a momentary abandonment to someone else’s vision. I feel none of this when watching a movie at home on the TV. The screen is relatively small and there is a button that will stop the movie if I want. It is mine and I’m not captive to someone else’s ideas.

That opinion has changed since I watched Irreversible about a month ago.

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On My Retirement Part I

It’s nearly the one-year anniversary of my retirement. I’m not planning a celebration of any sort; it is simply a small marker in my life, a time for reflection.

Many people, men and women, have asked why I retired. Most escorts retire because of a relationship. Some retire because they’ve saved enough money, achieved whatever goal they set, or landed their dream job. I was one of the ones who retired because of a relationship. Specifically, I was offered the opportunity to chase two ideas of mine, as well as forging a deeper bond with someone special.

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Not Smoking

I quit smoking two years ago. Sure, I’ve cheated but my body is happier without cigarettes and most of the time I forget that I ever took up the habit. I can assure you my lungs don’t miss it in the least. Sometimes I do crave a smoke and often I give in. The strange thing is that it is rarely satisfying and always reminds me of how nasty cigarettes taste. I always finish the cigarette though. I am nothing if not compulsive.

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My First Time

I never thought I would do a blog. I always told people no and shrugged it off. I’m not a trendy person in any way and I saw blogging as a stinking trend like cellphones with cameras.

The whole reason I’m doing this is because there are things I would enjoy writing about that don’t have a readily identifiable audience or market. This is not a daily look into my life, which is mundane, or a journal about my past jobs as a stripper or escort. Those things will certainly come up but that is not the focus of this journal.

As I write new entries I know I will gain direction. Long-time readers of my original site, please feel free to ask me questions or make suggestions (such as a snappier title than Amanda’s Blog). New readers are encouraged to read a bit more about me, both on my original site and my free site.

There are no high aims for this blog other than to entertain and maybe give someone a new thought.